Subject : On the eve of the Completion of Just One Month
of the Departure of My Mother for Heavenly Abode...!
My Dear Almighty God,
I know You have become more
affluent and genuinely richer by calling upon the divine soul of my beloved
Mother to your Heavenly Abode without even bothering to take my permission, only
a month back on September 25, 2019....!!!
Do you know that the sudden
departure of my Mother from this world has been a terrible blow to me in all
respects..? I am lost in a chilling avalanche hanging on a cliff beyond my
imagination...! The Nature has thrust upon me a dreadful Crude shock that has
rocked the internal core of my own mind and soul....!
I was never so downcast, when
I met with dangerous accidents in my life or various ups and downs in life as
usual or had the two vertebra of my backbone broken virtually yet I recovered normally
with Your Divine Grace and Love in no time....; but believe me..., never could you
bring me down so terribly..., As You have done today ~ yes..., I am completely
disheartened today.....!! A completely broken Man in all respects....!!! Well it’s
time for you to celebrate your ultimate victory over me ...!!!
At times I get a raw feeling
that because I never got tired of your several thrashings gifted to me
repeatedly in every walk of life throughout my whole life...., still I sprang back
with the same vigour to oscillate with renewed energy and recover my lost
position again with your divine grace and thoughtfulness because nothing is
possible without your help....! So you thought of defeating me at last in a
novel way.... that only suits your thought process and divine ideology....! And
you cruelly took back from me the only asset I had at the time of my birth. How
rude of you...! It seems to me that just
because you wanted to punish me for some of my past “Karma”, You have
heartlessly taken back first my Father (two years back) and now my Mother from
me and thus played this merciless Joke with me in particular....!!!
I know that you will say that
it’s a universal phenomenon...!!! Well that’s a very convenient excuse for
you...!!!! But remember, “This is bizarre spine-chilling injustice...!”
You knew the timing of their final
departure but not me...., WHY...??? Just because you are God doesn’t mean that......
Anyway..., Dear Almighty God,
with all humility I dare to ask you that if you have to take back what you
grant us then at the outset why you had filled the kind heart of my mother with
such a high degree of “Care”, “Love”, “Compassion”, “Patience”, “Endurance” and
“Vision” for all the members of the
family and not only Me...!!!
Now listen...., You may have
dared to take away the divine soul of my Mother ruthlessly from Me..., but the
transcendent vibes of the sublime “Care”, “Love”, and “Compassion” that she
adorned throughout her life for all the members of the family and friends...,
are still with us....! My mother had
a slender, small body, but really a very large “heart” - a heart so large that
everybody's joys found welcome mode with comfortable hospitable accommodation within
it....!!!
Dear Almighty God, I pray to you
with solemn thoughts and request you to have granted Her the divine eternal
peace within your grand heavenly abode which she earnestly longed for all her
life and rightly deserved for all kind of sacrifices she made to fulfil her
responsibilities amicably only to satisfy the world around during her
lifetime...! Will you be kind enough to take care of her soothing comforts,
cosy luxuries and eternal relief from the struggles of the physical life on earth
that she had to experience and face because of your intricate systems and high
profile worldly programs...!
Finally I request you with all
humility to kindly convey her divine soul some of my personal sublime feelings as
shared below:
“Mom..., maybe it is too late, but I know you are listening from the
Heavens above...! Mom, I love you and I remember you every moment...! Mom, I
appreciate and understand all the sacrifices you made in your life to give me a
better one....! No matter where I am or what I am doing, you will always be the
‘shining star’ in my life..., which gives me the strength to move on. I miss
you....!!!”
“I wish I
had the power to take back every pain, worry and hurt that I ever gave you. I
wish I could apologise for all that I could not fulfil your wishes because of
the various constraints in life..! I wish that I could just undo, all the
moments that made you blue. I miss you Mom...!!!”
“I miss having you share the feelings that
linger deep within my soul; there is emptiness there where you once were. I
miss you saying..."this is my son...!" and the look of pride you held
with each word spoken....!”
“I've
always wished for a guardian angel who would look over me from the Heavens
above....! I never knew you'd go all out to make my wish come true....! And now.....,
I miss you....! Most people can only dream about seeing an angel. But I had the
pleasure of living my whole life with one, and remembering her after she flew
away into the grandeur of Heavens without even informing me....!!!”
“Well I
know for sure that your eternal Departure from your own worldly nest The “Shivkunj”,
in Ajmer...., that you had built with so much care and sacrifice...., has ultimately
landed you to an amazing ambience of blissful celestial motherland called
“Heaven”, but it has made my life a living Hell....!!! And I do miss you Mom.....!!!”
“Mom...,
your ultimate sudden demarche from this physical world has made me realize that
every second we spent together I wasted an opportunity to tell you how much I
loved You...!!!”
“Mom....,
You never
said..., I am leaving...,
You never
said..., Goodbye.....!
You were
gone before we knew it...,
And only
Almighty God knows why...?
During the
past one month...,
A million times I needed You...,
A million
times I cried....,
If Love
alone could have saved you
And granted
you a further extension of life...,
You never
would have breathed your last breath.....!
In life I
loved you dearly...,
I passing
away I love you still....,
In my heart
you hold a place ...,
That only
you can appreciate and fill....!!!
Mom..., A
million words won’t bring you back....,
I know ..,
because I tried but in vain........!
Neither A
million tears would ever bring you back.....,
I know....,
because I tried a million times in vain...!
Maejee, Believe
me honestly You were my Home..., I had no home but You...!!!”
My Dear
Almighty God...,
I beg of
you and request you again to shower Your divine blessings on her divine selfless
soul and grant the humble soul of my Noble Mother......., the bliss of being a
dignified resident of Your Eternal Heavenly Dwelling..., so that she is free
from the repeated chakras of life and death and that she is finally merged with
your divine self....!!!
Thanks and regards,
Sincerely Yours...,
INDER KRISHEN WALI
